Growing up is hard to do (FOR MOM)

So this weekend Benny and I sent the little guy down to Nana and Poppies. We are preparing to leave to for Thailand in just 10 days and needed some time to get everything lined out. We are also re-arranging the apartment to make room for baby #2. Any who..... I love love love that Pax gets to spend time away from home with his grandparents but every single time I MISS MISS MISS MISS MISS the little guy. Benny thinks its funny because when we drop him off and pull away I'm already sad. Not sad about who he is with just sad that I won't see him for a couple of days and that means I miss out on our mornings. You see Pax and I have great mornings together. He is so joyful when he wakes up. We are usually awakened by sounds of him singing in his bed to Mr. Bear or jumping up and down laughing. I can not explain how much my heart melts daily to the sounds of his laughter. Then when I go into his room to get him he looks up at me with the biggest grin and hides his face in his blanket. It has become a game that when he hides his face I'm supposed to tickle him. One morning I didn't tickle him but hide down by the side of the crib and when he came looking for me I popped up and said boo this sent him into a tummy laugh like never before. After we change the 10 pound diaper from the night we get our bottle and its cuddle time. He just sits in my lap snuggling while he drinks up his milk. After he gets his last sip he immediately wants down so that he can charge into our bedroom and wake up daddy. I'm serious, everyday he goes into our bedroom over to Benny and pats him. If Benny doesn't acknowledge him he starts slapping the side of the bed yelling Dada. It is the cutest thing ever. Then Benny usually scoops him up and they wrestle. You see growing up is wonderful. Watching him change and form likes and dislikes. He has the funniest personality and corks about him. The hard part about growing up is mom letting go. Right now as I type this Nana and Poppie are preparing to take him to the lake for the first time! PLEASE TAKE LOTS OF PICTURES :) I love you guys and I'm so greatful that Pax has you to spend time with. He is a lucky little boy!

Pax~ I love you with ALL my heart. You light up our world and you give me joy that I never knew before. You are contagious to be around and your laughter melts me! I can't wait to see what God has in store for you little one. I promise to learn to let you grow up and change like you were meant to. I promise we will lead you the way the Lord instructs us to. You are an incredible little boy and we are so very thankful for you. I love you around the world and around my back!